back to the past

dan kembali lagi kesini. gatau kenapa ya selalu ngerasa beda kalo balik lagi kesini sama apa yang dirasain di jogja. kaya ada yang masih ketinggal gitu disini. abis gimana, lahir disini, udah kebiasa sama keadaan yang kaya gini dan tiba-tiba harus adaptasi lagi sama keadaan yang bedanya bener-bener jungkir balik ! (lebay tapi emang gitu). umur baru 8 taun, mama meninggal, harus tinggal ga sama papa, sama adek juga pisah, bener-bener belajar bertahan ditempat yang kayanya sebenernya ga nerima aku. capek, makanya tiap aku balik lagi kesini males rasanya mau pulang. harusnya aku disini bukan disana :')

cryin' laughin' smillin' FRIENDSHIP

i miss you, the old you 

I MISS THE OLD  YOU, HEEEEY DO YOU HEAR ME ? DO YOU UNDERSTAND ?

I MISS THE OLD YOU ! MOODBOOSTER !

I MISS YA daniel hernanda :')

N Y E S E K

you know what it feels like? It was like chewing gum that is no longer sweet and then thrown away :')

do you know what I want to do now? I want to scream. ya, I just want to scream. shouted out loud! that's all I can do to show what I feel now. I want to keep everything but maybe this is too difficult for me to do. I was wrong. all my fault with my childishness that made myself scared. I can not give you confidence, I'm always afraid that you have someone other than me, I always suspected you still have a relationship with her. I was always afraid you'll leave me. I'm afraid. I feel it's all because I'm only afraid of losing you. but I know all of that is an option and all have the right to vote. I just want you to be happy.you can get better than me :")