N Y E S E K

you know what it feels like? It was like chewing gum that is no longer sweet and then thrown away :')

do you know what I want to do now? I want to scream. ya, I just want to scream. shouted out loud! that's all I can do to show what I feel now. I want to keep everything but maybe this is too difficult for me to do. I was wrong. all my fault with my childishness that made myself scared. I can not give you confidence, I'm always afraid that you have someone other than me, I always suspected you still have a relationship with her. I was always afraid you'll leave me. I'm afraid. I feel it's all because I'm only afraid of losing you. but I know all of that is an option and all have the right to vote. I just want you to be happy.you can get better than me :")

i'm sorry to hurt you, i'm so sorry about it :')

MT MT MT MT MT

instead of just two letters that do not mean anything. but it is two things that have and will always do for me. give me a smile and throw away my tears. it would do for me.

STOP. NO MORE NOW :')

mau nangis, pengen teriak, kalo boleh lari sampe tempat mama.

indeed if I compare with him much difference. he's much better than me. in all things. I'm not nothing when compared to him. perhaps, you also should not be with me now, but with him. sorry, maybe I spoil everything. sorry, I'm so sorry

udah mau setaun tapi masi gini-gini aja. aku yg aneh apa gimana si ini -.- bingung harusnya gimana :( pengennya semua berubah. aku, bukan kamu. kadang masi ngerasa takut, ga bisa percaya sama skali. pengen ga ngerasain itu lagi. capek ngerasainnya. tapi ya gimana, susah :( susah buat percaya, takut kamu boong. padahal gamungkin juga :O gimanaaaaaa yaa